I WAS afraid to fall in love not because I don’t want to get hurt but I was too afraid of rejection. I grew up in an environment where my classmates and friends used to tease me endlessly, that I am FAT. Yes, I was really fat way back then, and almost weighed 200 lbs. I had a hard time walking and would always end up wearing maternity dresses since no jeans and shirts would fit me. I accepted the fact before that I will never GET married. Thinking that a guy can never fall in love with me because of the way I look.
I even said before, who would ever fall in love with a girl who looks real fat, plus the not so fair skin and the squashy hair? Even the guy whom I used to like before would pretend as if he doesn’t know me; if my friends would tease him that I like him. So that made me realize I need to do something about it. Not because I want someone to love me, but I need to do something that would help myself. Something that would regain the self-confidence and esteem I have lost. The challenge? It’s for me to shed a lot of pounds and to think as if I am normal just like other girls who can wear clothes of their size.
Up to this moment, I am still afraid what other people might think of me. And no matter what upright things they say about me, I would always consider that they are just making fun of me.
After a couple of years (fast forward I must say); everything had changed. I am already going to marry the prince charming I have dreamed of and I am proud to say that he accepts me no matter who and what I have been gone through (except that he still couldn’t believe the pictures and still laughs at me every time he sees it) LOL.
and this is me right now! ♥